• Abyss of thoughts

    I pretend for a moment that there is no insensibility around me

    I pretend for a moment that there is no insensibility around me. I pretend that is so wonderful to wake up and look through the window. I’m thinking about the relativity of that same happiness and I realize that I can only rely on my own. Nobody else will hand me over happiness. Behind that, there’s always some hidden intention, unfortunately, so today I say that it doesn’t exist, that there’s honesty in everyone and everything. I pretend that this world is full of love and that there’s something worth living, that there’s no unnecessary hatred and unreasonable condemnation. We all deserve to be loved the way we are, and…

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    The secret of happiness and peace of mind is connecting with people

    The secret of happiness and peace of mind is connecting with people. Relationships with people and connecting on multiple levels. One kind of love as a thread that unites people. We cannot have a quality life if we don’t have quality relationships with people. If we don’t have someone in our life to rely on or build a healthy relationship we cannot have quality life. That’s the most important thing. Why? Because love is an alternative to loneliness. How many of them wander lonely, with empty looks, empty souls, with a feeling of misunderstanding, delusion, feeling invisible. It’s never known for sure how it affects them and what consequences they…

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    Duality – so ambiguous word

    Duality-so ambiguous word, indeed. It’s probably more than that, too broad a notion to polemicize about it, to define it, but not for its establishment. How to establish a strong belief about it, when attitudes, like opinions and views of people, change and always are for a nuance more accurate or not? We look at each other by analyzing who is double-faced, who isn’t, why they’re like that, how’s that possible, whether they are what they’re representing to be or faces distort when the masks fall. We analyze the acts, we count changes, we collect little things, but we take away the reasons for them, not knowing that someone’s doing…

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    You scrape the surface, and below the surface – even larger one

    You read people like you were born for it, so clear that the surface from which you instinctively run becomes transparent. You’ve always been attracted to everything that’s hidden and never discovered. You never wanted to touch what’s below. And again, people are your bait that stretches your palate, so you have no choice but to swallow them. You read them so well as if you had written their lives long before they wrote their pages themselves. Life never prepared you for it, but in the depths of your soul, you always knew that you were predetermined for a much bigger and deeper mystery of this world and that it’s…

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    We will become only a photograph

    We grow up. So quickly and seamlessly, life passes before our eyes as a black and white photograph in some virtual form, too detailed, yet blurred and empty. That kind of photo we would always remember, keep, and remove dust from it. Alive and too important, worth everything and filled with everything that we are, all that we haven’t been, all that we wanted to become. It includes all those people who have either been a lesson or a gift, all those dark nights and days filled with true happiness, years of experiences, success, failure, discovering ourselves at different times as different people, but essentially the same. That photo has…

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    Insomnia

    Does it occur to you only to lie down and stare at the ceiling? Thinking about things that happened in the past days, weeks… About wasted time and money spent. We’re lying like paralyzed with a feeling that things will not be as they should be and that dreams will only remain dreams, even when we get old and withered.

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    Delusion

    Everything in my stomach is turning upside down at the thought that some people fill themselves with pain and with anger, convincing themselves that it was love. They train themselves to endure the worst storms, they work to devote their entire lives to someone. Someone that love can’t describe, someone who can’t be love…

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    Do not fear death

    I don’t think death is as frightening as it seems to us. We will all die one day- that’s inevitable. But some people spend their entire lives not living and that’s scary. The mere thought of being somewhere and taking up some space, but not being noticed… You hide from others, you hide from yourself. And then life passes by, and death comes. It spills your whole life like a vision in the last moments of life. And all you see is the skeleton, breathing, darkness and imminent death…