• Self-knowledge through words

    Insecurity

    Do you know what insecurity is and where it lies? Are you insecure? Are we all a bit like that? That insecurity is skillfully hidden and camouflaged. One moment it will occur in the form of clothes, another moment it will be adjusted in your playlist, and the next it will be in the way you present yourself to people. Insecurity. How long has it been since you reached your hands in the mass of people staring at the sky, looking forward to the pouring rain? Instead, you fit into that same mass and blend in with it. You become monochrome in a circle of people with the same aura-…

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    The moment will come when you will have to show what has made you like that

    The moment will come when you will have to show what has made you like that. You will not know what that moment is until it happens to you. Until you’re the center of everything, because of something that you did or didn’t do, because of something that’s within you and you cannot understand. They will try to kick you in the corner, and stone you with words, hurt you and put you down, but the trick is always in how powerful your psyche is, to either shut off or allow them to enter. They will try to break your bones, bones that none of them strengthened until you realized…

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    I’m not defined by what I said, but by what I did to prove myself

    My character isn’t determined by my past, nor by labels that you pin on me so easily. I’m not defined by what I said, but by what I did to prove myself. Only I can define me. I overcame and survived all your punches, all your attacks, passed the tests and went through all of that until the point when I could say with certainty that I’m proud of that person within me, of everything that she has done to drain the last drop of strength to survive and stay alive. On my feet, steady. Alone. I myself accomplished my achievements. I myself have overcome every obstacle. I had to…

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    Today, you have complete freedom to be a woman

    Don’t get up yet; lie calmly for a few minutes, half an hour, an hour. Give yourself time, forget about your plans, at least once. Give yourself plenty of time to accept yourself the way you are. Get up and go to the mirror, clean your face, and smile. Observe your reflection in the mirror. Don’t grab the towel immediately, catch the waking of your eyes as well and stare at your pupils. Face the emptiness you carry in them, but not by your fault. Don’t pay attention to the dark circles around your eyes, don’t put concealer to cover them, not today. Face the exhaustion in your eyes before…

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    The psychic deadness

    Where did the real truth slip away? It’s mixed with all lies, blending in the form of fear, in the form of shivering. When the mind turns its back to conscience, every thought becomes suicidal. Body paralysis, shivering, and persistent lack of air where there’s plenty of it. When did we become so alienated from emotions, cut off from rationalism, killing ourselves inside out, over and over again? One scene, multiple scenes until the scene is gone. What moment lost us? We hold on to it, but when the moment lets us go, we become paralyzed, cut off from the feelings. All those words that slipped down the tongue, silently,…

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    Irony

    Don’t make an obstacle in humans or animals. Don’t make scars, on the body or on the soul. Don’t say words which are sharp and cold. Don’t be violent, physically or mentally. This is real advice for your mind. But still, you become arrogant, you don’t care. You’ve gone and made your sanctuary. You made temples, mosques and pilgrimages. You built a religion and created bias. Various ways for spiritual beliefs and traditions, which aren’t part of my current mission. Equal behavior towards everyone is my primary goal, trust and love became a dead end, and people no longer have dignity. Times change rapidly, I’m watching with my broken eyes,…